True Love

I been waiting and seeking for a long time. How you know it is the true love? Sometimes i also quite shaken for what i did in the pass, am i doing it in the wrong way? Or i have not really know how to love a person like as i do? Is it so difficult to express your love to the one you like even she is not your girlfriend? So the girl must be your girlfriend then you can express the love to her?

Sometimes i think and feel that love is simple to someone that is in love with each other. As the other way round, no matter what you do for the girl you like and she still don give a damn to you, and you keep doing the thing that what you think is the best for her interests. Is it love? Is it foolish? Or just it is not love at all?

I had been seeking the answer, how much am i going to give you then you will love me? What am i going to do to let you know i m always there for you?

I had shaken for all the thing i did in the pass. Some may said i had been foolish to waste so much time on someone who don't even love u care about you, and usually i was told to get to know someone even better.

Even better? I had seen to feel quite loss. I seen to loss a perfect girl in life.

So sorry for the someone that i hurt long ago.
So sorry for making you such a idiot that like me so long.
So sorry to let you leave this piece of sad land that make you feel so unhappy for so long.
If you really read this, my feeling was so depress like what you have told me and been honest to me. Right now i got the same feeling, as you do.

Our moment is keep within my heart.
Thanks for brewing tea for me when i was sick.
Thanks for giving me your very first strawberry cake that you make.
Thanks for holding my hand when you feel cold in cinema.
Thanks for the company in my exam time.
And thanks for the love and care that you had given me.

You know who you are. I m really appreciate for everything you had given to me. It is not that you are not as pretty as her. Just that i m not as good as you think.

Once again i hope that you understand.In a lot of ways you are much more stronger then her. I really hope that we could start a fresh and treat me like you best buddy we do in the pass. And my promise to you still the same, never change.

Again

Today i had gone for the interview. Well a bit of screw up when they ask me about data transfer and photolitografic, and some more i had place a wrong year of graduation in ITE. Well don talk about it, just hope that can get the job fast.

Today see her post in blog, can see that she really need someone to care and stay beside her every hour and min. I know i wont be the one that she will look for it. I keep telling myself that wont happen to me, even i m the last guy in earth.
Again my heart just hurt for every thing you want. Cause i just don have any more courage to do anything for you. Even when i wan to give a call to you the courage is just a painful strike.

爱情KTV

在最近的KTV里，你我他都在一个KTV厢房里。虽然有些朋友的隐隐掩盖着一些我们不敢提的话。但也刻意去掩盖那些过去。你的神情我可以感到不安和自然。你可以不看他但心里的激动却隐隐而现。我不知如何安慰你，我也不知道你在那时候的心情是如何。

在那刻的我感到自己的多情和自私又再一次的然你感到不安。我想让你见他会让你好过一点。也许我做到了。但不知会不会让你要得更多？

我累了。累的不想在知道太多。太多的明白会让我无尽的付出。太多的明白你永远不会珍惜我的关怀。

前途

有那么一天的我，在读一次这里的一切。我不难发现，其实我写的一些东西，只是我的一时的感想，那时的冲动。这里会是我发泄不满的地方，我的想法感情和悲哀。读这我写的东西似乎少了一些让人有股冲动想哭的感觉。

感觉，感观与感情的一贴可以让你哭或悲伤与感动。一个好贴会让你眼框水水，情感万分。

在悠悠的一个星期里，该忘了的感情事情也该放一边了。每个晚上的恶梦随影而来。渐渐的习惯了，每晚似乎都是在睡前都会有几滴的眼泪流下脸颊。也不知何时我才缓缓的进入梦乡。

离开了学校，有更多有意义的事我应该想想。未来前途，好好地把握一分一秒的时光。我必须再一次的进修。有那么一次我还记得，那是第五天的开学。一伙人去吃西餐的时候，突然说到里开学校的我会做些舍么事。我想我会边工作边读书，慢慢拿到文凭。时间可能会长些但无所谓，毕尽我也26岁了没有时间在慢慢读了。但这次你又说了“国强可能全值读文凭，读完了毕业了找的工作会比你多钱~！”我听了，顿时无语。我好生气，好生气，无端端的又被你放了冷箭。我气的不跟你说话了。过了几个天，我想你可能是无心的吧。渐渐的又在一次回到以前的我。

无心的伤害会比有心来的痛。
有心的伤害是策划好好地伤害你。
而无心的伤害却是你心里认为他人给你地定义。

承诺

最后一天的你，我不禁发现你的一些小小改变。
可能是习惯，可能觉的最后一天的你特别的美丽。
你说不要忘记你。你说要多多的联络。
我说你在我心里是特别的，我说我会找你再一起出去的。
我说的一切不是说说而已，我每一句都是给你的承诺。

在告别的路口上，我再一次默默在心里偷偷的流泪。
你不会发现，但也不会知道我的心还是属于你的。
我尝试地放下，我尽量的不要把感情表露出来。
我真的很伤很伤很伤心，心好痛好痛好痛。
痛的比那一个夜里想你还来的痛。
在那个夜晚里心里的挣扎，心里的痛是无法形容的。

你会想我吗？你还会记得我的一切吗？
可能或许你会，时间会是冲淡所有的一切一切。
你给我的记忆还是好象昨天的事。
我不知道我那一颗心又会想你多久。
会是一辈子？十年？二十年？